My First Met With SSA
There are so many stories that I can share, here one of them. When I was in my hometown, some story made me feel great, made me feel worst and made me feel shocked, this is one of them.
Well, when I worked in IT Developer Company in bandung, I had one coworker who openly that he attracted to me, it’s ok if my coworker was a girl, but apparently my coworker was a guy and and he held my hand once, at that moment I’m really embarrassed, shameful and the odd thing that I’ve ever felt.
I just stood still, I just thought that’s wasn’t ok, male friendship do not (sorry to say) touching my n**ple or hold hand each other, I release his hand suddenly. I’ve tried to no judgemental of his behave, It’s so hard for me to communicate that I’m still his coworker afterall.
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In the next day, He apparently changed at work, so temperamental, he was so angry when I getting closer with other person. That’s was not good for myself and for others, I decided to resignation.
For a couple of months, I tried to find the new job and thanks God, I got new job in the small company. My role was a web developer in that company, and I managed their online store website. At the first time, I enormously super excited to work with that company, I met new people with different background. I admitted they’re really supportive, smart and encouraged environment, hence they called green attitude.
Suddenly my life style has changed in the good way of course, I started to living more healthier, more green attitude. Moreover, my experienced and my knowledge has increasingly gained well since then.
Time by time, life not always aligned to my wishes, I was unfullfilment because the past has turned over again, one of my coworker did terrible things to me. He touched my n**ple and my butt deliberately, hey dude that’s wasn’t funny at all. To be honest I’m really hated him but at the same time I felt sorry for his girl friend (by now she has already being his wife). In the next year I decided to resignation again, and move out to jakarta, and I’m happy since then.
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Maybe someone with same sex attraction (SSA) liked me because they expected me the same person as they are. Wow, I’m sorry to say, just because I’m the silent person and lack of masculinity doesn’t mean I the same person as they are.
I knew the gay and homosexual are different terms, commonly someone who admitted as a gay (came out from the closet), they’re really open minded person of their sex orientation because gay is a life style, but otherwise with homosexual, sometimes they open, but oftenly not.
According to world health organization (WHO), have gradually removed diagnoses that once defined homosexuality per se as a mental disorder (click here). But otherwise In my country, the LGBTQ(Lesbian, Gay, Bisexual, Transgender, and Queer) are banned and do not allowed to express their sex orientation activities.
We respected human rights but doesn’t mean we freely to express our desire because we lived and bonded with a tradition and religion beside a goverment rules. If someone break those rules, they will against more than one hundred million people, are they ready for it?
Frankly, this wasn’t my first time dealing with SSA, since I born, I grew up with SSA, yupz, my aunt is one of them. When my mother went to work, she did always good take care of me, loving me unconditionally. I knew she lesbian from her appearance, shortcut hair and act like a men. I’ve never ever saw her with a boyfriend, but she always with her girlfriend. Sometimes I checked her cellphone, all numbers are from her girlfriend.
However, she’s kind person and never forget to take pray five times a day. I knew what she did was wrong in my religion, but she’s just a human being, she didn’t know what LGBTQ is and never fight for it. I love her unconditionally, and I always pray to Allah SWT to forgive and guide us to the light.
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